Get a grip will ya’ …

Posted on | November 9, 2008 |

This morning I woke up with the burning feeling that I need to get a grip.  Yes, Bunny is having some issues and I’m worried about her, but what would I do if I had a child and this had happened to them?  Perspective is something I need to keep in mind these days.  Lately when things like this happen I tend to have this ‘jeez, what now?!’ approach, and that’s not doing me any good.  Maybe its the upcoming holidays and pending birthday that are weighing me down?  For the past few years this time of year has obviously been difficult for me, during which I find myself having feelings of jealousy.  I too want the family, the children, the proud moments spent with parents that are now grandparents.  But I suppose that like anything else in life the more you want ‘it’ the less you see the forrest for the trees and you tend to narrow your focus on the specific things you do not have as opposed to seeing the big picture and those things that you do have.  I know that sounds a little deep for me but I have been listening to the readings of Eckhart Tolle lately and I think they are starting to sink in.    

This morning Bunny was able to get up on her own, albeit very shaky, get outside and do some of her business.  I was by her side the whole time and while she seemed determined to be able to do things herself she did require a little help to get back into the house and is now laying down resting on her bed.  

So as I leave for San Jose I am going to try and keep things in perspective, realize that you can only do what you can do, not dwell on the ridiculousness of a job that is only a job, and enjoy the life that I do have.  Not the one I don’t.

See you on the flip side kids.

 

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